29 July 2014 at 2:14 pm #9750veraParticipant
In a GT Support Group last Monday
An interesting question was posed
By a bored irritated “mentor”
Just before the session was closed.
The question was aimed at a client
Who keeps making blunders and blips
And who, under the guise of “Recovery”
Returns to report on her slips.
The facilitator’s brain must be frazzled
From listening to reasons and rhymes
As to why the barriers keep shifting
Malfunctioning so many times!
The question the client must answer
Concerns expectation and hope
As to the purpose of joining in Groups
While still “acting the dope”!
“Tell me why do you come here?
What do you want from this Site?”
Sounded like an ultimatum
If I don’t get it right!
How can I answer the question
“Why do I come to GT?”
After years of hiccups and set backs
“Is this the right place for me?”
31 July 2014 at 8:02 pm #9754
Irritated and bored? That’s not me
I’m just here choosing recovery
No ulitimatums and no bans
All can come here whenever they can
And when they come here I can set them a task
To honestly answer questions I ask
The one I asked I hope you will answer
The Vera I know is not just a chancer
And Vera, while you’re such a good poet
I pose hard questions, and you know it
So read your poem and see what you wrote
If you miss it then maybe I’ll quote
Is your recovery only a “guise?”
I really hope it’s not a disguise
Is this the right place for you?
Well if not here what would you do?
Reading the forum I see you’ve been busy
Posting all over the place, it’s making me dizzy
The one thing I hope you get in your head
Is posting helps more when on your own thread
Posting there makes it harder to duck
Or justify gambling and trying our luck
The groups now open you can see that
So see you shortly, come in for a chat.
1 August 2014 at 11:27 pm #9753veraParticipant
Thanks for the poem Charles
It moved me to tears
I know I’ve been gambling
To escape from my fears
Always found your group helpful
That’s why I came to GT
But I now realize
That it’s all up to me.
I need to fly solo to test out my wings
And rely less on other people for things
Time to take off the mask
To remove the disguise
So I’m writing these words
To say my goodbyes
Here’s to the “bullshit”, deflection and games
Played by a fictitious woman
Using fake pseudo names.
Time to write a REAL journal
To walk a straight line
And live out your advice
One day at a time!
4 August 2014 at 5:23 pm #9752
That’s your addiction, telling you lies.
From years of gambling we have both learnt
That on our own we will surely get burnt
Every time we tried on our own
We gambled more and too out more loans
If you’re really removing the disguise
That would be a good move, timely and wise
So where’s the real journal we can all read?
And give you support in your time of need
What real steps are you now to take?
So a lasting recovery you can then make
What’s really different, what’s really new?
What touch actions are you going to do?
If you think you can do it without some support
That’s ignoring the lessons that you have been taught
If you still think gambling is fun
Then what’ve you learnt from all that you’ve done?
No more “bullshit”, deflection and games?
Great, so get typing and tell us your aim
Or maybe you’re going to continue to hide
And listen to your addiction and all of it’s lies
I really hope the answer is no
Vera be honest and give it a go
No more BS you don’t want that
So just get your ar*e back into chat!
18 August 2014 at 6:03 pm #9751
How’s that straight line going Vera? I’m still hoping to read that real journal.
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